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Seligmann leans his head away from my touch. 'Go on, baby,' he says, 'lets see what you can do.'
I choke. Nausea overwhelms me, there's a terrible moment in which I think I may actually e sick, which recedes and leaves me thankful to the point of desperation for my body's lack of drama. I can't go on.
Заранее спасибо